Thursday, November 05, 2009

Midnight Stroll

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Midnight Stroll
by, Melissa R. Mendelson

The taste of snow flowed through the air. White wisps of clouds circled around spoken words, and red embers of cigarettes fell down onto wet pavement. Lips savored the bitter wind, and trees waved back and forth in the distance. And luminous shadows stole across the full moon.

The streets were quiet tonight. The scent of winter had chased everyone indoors, but not everyone was so lucky. Fires blazed in trash cans in dark alleyways, and hooded figures huddled around them. And I knew shelter was nearby, and they knew it. But they were afraid of going there and felt safer living on the street.

Flames flickered in their eyes, and haunted words slipped from their lips. Their hands reached out toward me, but I had nothing to give. Their expressions remained blank, pale faces, but I could hear their hearts pounding the pavement. And I wished that I could save them, but I couldn’t. And it would be safer for them to keep away from me.

The wind was stirring again, and a newspaper rolled by. Headlines screamed of crimes once thought unheard, but monsters now walk these streets. They could live next door, be your best friend, or remain in darkness, waiting to strike. It was like an epidemic, and innocent blood was constantly being spilled. Senseless death poured a thousand tears over a freshly buried grave, and if I could save them, I would. But what would they then become?

The warmth of the diner rushed over me, but it couldn’t silence the chill. The edge of winter was already slicing in, and soon I would no longer be able to take these long walks. The aroma of perfume caught me off guard, and my eyes fell deep into those of the waitress. But then my gaze retreated to the menu because I knew better, and my order was merely a cup of coffee. And she hurried away like a sly fox, thinking that I liked her, but she had no idea. And she would be safer, if she stayed away.

I savored the aroma of coffee, but I had not drunk it in a very long time. Like an alcoholic, I merely stared at it, wanting it with every fiber of my being, but it would be like drinking poison. And no matter how tempting that pool of black liquid was, I knew better, but still my fingers dangled along the cup’s edge. And I breathed in deeply.

“Long night?” My eyes returned to hers. “It’s late, isn’t it?”

“Not late enough for me.”

“I see that.” The waitress lingered beside the table. “What’s your poison?”

“Excuse me?”

“Insomnia keeping you up?”

“No. I get enough sleep during the day.”

“So, you work at night?”

“No.” I watched her fingers slide over the smooth, marble surface. “I don’t work.”

“Are you an artist?”

“No.” I knew that she was waiting for some sort of pickup line, but I would not deliver it. “I’m just passing through.”

“Oh, really. Where did you come from?” I laughed at her question. “What?”

“Nothing. That’s just an interesting question.” I paused for a long moment. “I’ve lived everywhere.” She looked confused. “I travel a lot.”

“So, I guess you’ll be moving on soon?”

“I would say so.” I heard a name being called from the kitchen, knowing that it was hers. “It would be safer, if I didn’t stay too long.”

Her expression showed that another question was coming, but she was being called away. And I was grateful to be left alone. She did not need to bother with me, but she wouldn’t forget me either. And when the police came the next day, she would describe my every feature, but that didn’t matter because they would never find me. I would hide somewhere nearby, resting, and then I would be gone shortly after sunset.

The feel of the leather seat underneath me made me nostalgic. I remembered a world lost to this one, and only fragments of its existence filtered through the Hollywood scene. I know we came so far, but did we realize what we lost? I could feel humanity slipping through my fingers, and as I surveyed the small diner, I saw nothing but those connected to technology. I realized that after another decade or so, there would be no more survival but pure dependency on gadgets and gizmos, but what would happen, if technology seized to exist? Would they disappear along with it? Would that be the end of me?

There were only a handful of people in the diner at this hour. A couple curled up together in a booth nearby. The girl was busy texting, and the guy was chattering away on his cell phone. And if you turned the clocks back, they would be the odd ones sticking out, space men, but it was me that was the sore thumb. And if they were smart, they would leave soon.

Two loners caught my attention, but which one to choose? I had to be smart. I made a mistake once, and I still carry the burden of that regret. I took him away from his wife and child, but who would have thought that a man like him would even have a family? I saw what was really lurking beneath that façade, a monster waiting to be born, and I knew the lives that he would take. But I took his first, and now it was time to decide.

The two men bore a similarity to each other. They were dressed casually, sitting alone in the far corners of the place, and their eyes drifted across the waitress that passed by them. One took out a wallet filled with cash, but the other merely pulled a pool of change out of his pocket. They paid for their coffee and food at roughly the same time, and they would surely depart after the other. But which one would it be?

The rich man barely left a tip, but the other struggled to leave more than he had. This settled my decision, and I waited. I let the poor man slip out into the bitter hands of the cold outside, and the other man followed. I rose from my seat, dropping a twenty on the table and slipped through the doors. But unlike the two men before me, no reflection was cast against the glass.

I later found the poor man huddled over a burning barrel on my trek home. His stomach still rumbled from hunger, and his hands folded together, praying for warmth. His face was expressionless, but life flowed through those pale eyes. And his mouth fell open as I handed him a wallet full of cash, but before he could thank me, I vanished from sight. And he was left alone, but when the police come and search for him, they would not find him. He was going home, a place, where I could never return, but another city waited for me.






Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Skies over Destiny

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The skies fall under darkness.
Traffic spills across the busy streets.
I wander lost.
Home is seen across the horizon.
Headlights shine against hard road.
Where am I going?
My origin stretches out in the distance.
Another day awaits,
but do I want to return?
Is this my life,
or does my destiny
lie over the distant rainbow?
And I drive on,
braking against the sea
of bumper to bumper traffic,
and my thoughts spin
as tires crunch down along ground.
Will I ever be living my dreams?

Skies over Destiny
by, Melissa R. Mendelson






Sunday, November 01, 2009

Gold Against The Blue

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We believe there are no heroes left,
no heroes to take us under their wing
and silence the wars
raging along these streets.
We only see the imaginary heroes
coming to our rescue,
saving innocence,
and taking down
the bad guys,
but those men that hold us captive
with the depth of their heart
only live within the television screen.
And they are not the ones
coming to save us,
and against the blue
do we feel the darkness.
But as bullets threaten to rip
this world apart
do guardian angels take flight,
laying their life on the line
for us,
and if we want to see the heroes
that we wish to believe in,
then we only have to open our eyes.
They stand proud,
side by side
with medals dangling from their necks,
and we realize
that there are good men and women left
to bring down
the wave of crime
and carry this world
above their wings
that hold us tight.

Gold Against The Blue
by, Melissa R. Mendelson






Thursday, October 22, 2009

Leaving You Behind

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Leaving You Behind
by, Melissa R. Mendelson

Minutes are left till the end of the world.
What would you have me say?
My words are words you don’t want to hear.
Now, I must say good-bye.


Storm clouds gather.
I can feel your rage.
You never understood me,
and I am not yours to control.
So, I say good-bye.


Chorus:

The world you know is crashing to an end.
Your plans for me are your dreams unfinished.
I leave your arms, your cold touch,
and I can breathe again.
You are not what I need.


You say that I am the only one for you.
I tried to leave once before,
but you couldn’t let go.
But no matter what you say,
I am leaving now.


Your words may echo across the cyberspace.
Your hand may press against the screen.
Your heart may cry for me,
but your love was suffocating me.
Now, you need to let me go.

Chorus:

Bridge:

The end of the world came today, and today, I say good-bye. I am no longer the bird held in your cage, and now I fly free. And you can’t follow me.

Chorus:






Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Last Call

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Last Call
by, Melissa R. Mendelson

The small atmosphere of a pub glowed with warmth. Drinks oozed out of glass and splashed along tables. Feet shuffled around, and trays surfed through the air. Cash exchanged hands, and cold air danced in and out of the doorway. But the noise control did not reach its max due to being a weeknight, but still the voices did their best to drown out those left to their thoughts.

A young woman sat back against her booth. Her fingers slid down a glass of Midori Sour. Her eyes were sad as thoughts tumbled through her mind, and she paid no attention to those gathering around her. But as if sensing something, nobody dared take the vacant seat before her.

“Do you mind if I sit here?” Her eyes fell on the man now standing before her. “If it’s okay.” She merely nodded, and he sat down. “Why are you sitting alone?”

“I like being alone.” She finally took a sip of her drink. “It’s less complicated that way.”

“Oh.” He tried to smile, and then he turned away. “Would you like me to leave you alone?”

“That’s your choice.” His eyes studied her. “I’ll be leaving soon anyway, so if you decide to stay, you can have this booth.”

“I rather share it with you.” A waitress brought over his beer. “Another for my friend here.”

“That’s not…” The waitress hurried away. “Necessary. Thank you.”

“So, why is someone as beautiful as you sitting by yourself?”

“Like I said before. I like being alone.”

“I’m sure there’s a story behind that.” He sipped his beer. “Care to share?”

“Which one do you want to hear? The Glass Window or Shadows in the Stairwell?” He looked confused. “Look, you seem like a nice guy, and my radar has not gone up yet. So, I don’t think you’re one of the crazies, but you may think of me as one of them.”

“Try me.” He leaned closer to her. “I can already tell that you’re not crazy.”

“You want to bet on that?” She took another sip of her drink, realizing that he was waiting for a longer response than that. “Okay. Why am I sitting alone here tonight?” He nodded. “Well, you know what this weekend is.”

“Halloween.” She nodded. “You don’t like Halloween?”

“Let’s just say I had my share of ghosts and goblins.”

“So, you see dead people?” Her mouth fell open, but she found herself speechless. “They now make tv shows about people like you.” She snorted at his comment. “You could be famous.”

“Or I could be locked up in a little, white, padded room.” Her voice sounded a little too bitter. “I don’t know why, but when I was a kid, I was tormented by things that I still cannot understand.” She pushed the rest of her drink away from her just as the waitress arrived with another one. “At least, it’s over.”

“Another beer. Please.” He watched the waitress disappear around the corner. “What makes you think it’s over?” Her eyes met his. “If you indeed experienced the supernatural, what makes you think that it left you alone?”

“Because it’s been quiet for a long time.”

“You sound like you miss it.”

“Miss it? Are you kidding? My childhood was torn to pieces because of it.” The beer slammed down on the table, making her jump back. “Seriously?” She watched the waitress walk away. “I can’t have a normal life because of what I lived through. I tried.”

“So, how are you making a living?” He sat back in his seat, gazing at her. “You look like a professional.”

“Try retail. I lost a decade of my life there already.”

She couldn’t tell if this mystery man was playing with her or not. His eyes seemed dark, mysterious, and he was very charming. But she knew to be careful of men like this because the real crazies always appeared as saints, and she barely survived the last one that came into her life. And this one could be a shark testing the waters.

“I’m not playing with you.” He crossed his arms over his chest. “I just thought you could use some company.”

“You read minds?”

“I’m a good guesser.” She started to laugh. “When was the last time you had a good laugh?”

“I don’t know.” She crossed her arms over her chest. “It’s been some time.”

“You want some advice?”

“What? You’re not going to ask me out?” He laughed in response. “What’s the advice?”

“Accept the past. There’s no such thing as coincidence.”

“That’s two things.” She glanced at her watch. “I’ve learned that there is no such thing as coincidence, but I can’t accept the past. I can’t accept being some kind of pawn in… Something’s twisted game.”

“You’re more than a pawn, but you don’t realize it.” He leaned closer to her again. “You’re stronger than that, but you so easily forget.”

“It’s easy to forget.”

“The older we get, the easier it becomes, but you have to fight it. You have to remember.”

“Why is it so important to remember?

“Because things happen for a reason, Abby.”

“How did you know my name?”

“Because I have been watching over you for a long time, and it looks like you are thinking of giving up.”

“Giving up?”

“You don’t drink, but here you are at this pub. You don’t want to go home because you really hate being alone. You don’t let anyone in because you always wind up being the one getting hurt, or you drive them away instead. You hate your job, and those that work with you don’t hide it too well that they don’t like you. You’re miserable, and you keep thinking of the past, trying to grab hold of it. Admit it. Back then, you felt more alive than you do now, and you’re surrendering yourself to the ordinary life. And you are far from ordinary.”

“What do you propose for me to do?” He leaned back in his seat. “It’s hard enough surviving the real world, but being who I am, it’s even harder. There is no place for people like me, and I have to be careful not to be locked up. Sure, they could use me in Hollywood, but how do I get there? I don’t know where I’m going, and I am just trying to survive.” She leaned closer to him. “Now, I want to know who the hell you are.”

“You know who I am.” His eyes held hers. “You’ve seen me once before.”

“Where? At work? Are you stalking me?”

“Your ex stalks you not me.”

“Then, tell me where.”

“Go back to the past, and you’ll get your answer.” He slid out of the booth. “Once you understand what was, you’ll know what is.”

“And what the hell does that mean?” He stood near her. “Got that from a fortune cookie?”

“Just don’t resort yourself to the ordinary. It won’t become your sanctuary but a prison.” She shook her head. “Accept who you are.”

When she turned to look at him, he was gone. The door to the pub continued swinging open and close, allowing a cold breeze to flow in. Voices still raised high in the air, and trays bopped up and down nearby. And finally she spied the waitress that had attended to them earlier.

“Can I help you?”

“Yeah. How much do I owe you for the drinks?”

“What drinks?”

“The drinks my friend and I were having.”

“Listen, lady, I don’t know what you are on, but there are no drinks on the table. And I never served you, so if you do want a drink, just tell me what it is.”

Glancing at the table, she didn’t see any drinks, but she remembered having one Midori Sour. And the guy was sipping a beer, but where did the glasses disappear to? And she could hear a loud sigh escape the lips of the waitress, who tapped her foot impatiently.

“Did you see anyone sitting here with me?”

“Let me guess. A tall dark and mysterious man.”

“Yes.”

“No. As far as I know, you only just sat down in this booth, and there are other people here waiting for a seat. So, either order a drink or move.”

“So much for your tip,” Abby muttered as she stood up from her seat.

“What was that?”

“Nothing.”

As the waitress turned and stormed away from her, she tripped over someone’s foot. Her empty tray went flying into the air and crashed down on the floor. She broke her fall by landing on her elbows and knees, and her head snapped back in Abby’s direction. And all Abby could do was laugh.

“Have a good night.” Abby walked out of the pub.

As the cold air struck her in the face, Abby hurried over to her car. The day had started out ordinary, but the night ended far from it. And she had more questions than answers, but as she thought about her mystery man, she was sure of one thing. He was trying to help her, but would she ever know why?

Connecting Chapters:

Glass Window: http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2731251/1/Glass_Window

Shadows in the Stairwell: http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2726779/1/Shadows_in_the_Stairwell






Friday, October 16, 2009

Embrace

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I slip from the arms of love,

but that was so long ago.

Its touch is like a ghost

begging for my heart,

but I fear to let go.

Daggers had cut me deep,

and my tears have run dry.

And I walk alone,

and the world remains

out of my grasp.

And I wish to live,

free myself from these walls

of my life,

and I wish to love.

But no more

would I find

the same man

waiting to break me.

When I return

back to the warm embrace of love

would I find someone

to set me free,

but until that day,

I remain alone.


Embrace
by, Melissa R. Mendelson






Friday, October 09, 2009

Linger

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Linger
by, Melissa R. Mendelson

He says I love you,
but what does that mean?
Does he know the words,
or does he feel its message?
And my heart tries to respond,
but its hands can’t grasp
love’s definition.
And my words are hollow
as I say
those three, little words,
and his thoughts reflect mine.
Do I know the words?
Do I feel its essence?
Love is the stranger
that rarely visits my heart,
and it slips
through my fingers.
And I’m left, waiting
for love to return,
but would my heart remember?
Or would words fall
into the void
that drank
all my emotions away?